Sirius Awakening

Hi evryone i´ll try to keep it simple but it really isn´t so bare with me . Help me or the world to solve this puzzle.I recomend read the book "The right use of will" it is a blue book with two entangeled symbols in gold on the frontcover .

My entire life i was inspired by otherworldly things .When i came to school the first thing a did was leave the classroom and go out to the woods across the street andd sit with the trees that calmed me down and gave me a sort of peace . Evrything i did was because of my intuition . I believe i am a INDIGO child back then i had no clue . I was or i am dislexic but i pick up on foreign languages very quick . I always dreamed of flying and showing my friends how to fly and everytime they did not believe in me i was imedeatly pulled to the ground .Here is the thing i was not a genius i was always daydreaming so i had hard times maintaining the so called good grades . It was like one half of me was busy trying to find out who i was and the other one would try to cope with the so called projected reality. In the beginning i failed so i was send to the school shrink to learn how to socialise and communicate and not to be afraid to talk to people or speak my mind . Mind you i was six years of age .I was very afraid and i had constant nightmares "on the astral plain i fought shadow beings " almost 18 years . I grew up in germany and the first time i came to New York was when i was 18 years old . That triggered a very powerfull obe experience where i saw NYC being constructed in a compressed timemode and the end picture was to pillars of light where the twin towers used to be it was a very exiting and wonderfull experience. It was like i was being prepared for the things to come . Back then i could not understand the message that was send to me .To make along story short through out the years i mooved to the staates cause i was told to do it by what ? Call it a inner voice that kinda guides you to places where you need to be and the most amazing stuf happens. I believe this happens to us all. I am beginning to feel see hear and think in patterns that all come together. I have read Doreen Virtues Book about reincarnets of diffrent kind. I found the Starseed quiz and found out why i feel a strong connection to willow trees. Then somewhere in time i had a Shamanic Experience with AYAHUASCA (If ya don´t know what it is read about it!) . Then a few things came into the clear . I had headaches and migrane attacks all my life and mental blocks wher i couldn´t think further .In my visions that i had from this substance i was told in a telepathic way that my Atlas Bone needs to be readjusted in order for my brain to function at a higher frequency. That was affecting my spine my teeth my stomache my complete left side of my body and it´s meridians.Then i found out that we all finding the same energy source . Dr . Masaru Emoto "the message from Water" found these crystals ,Drunvalo Melchizedek explained the Merkaba as an energy field then i looked at the atomic pattern of a beryllcrystall then i looked at a german book called "WAsserklangbilder by Lauterwasser" and behold i saw the same pattern emrging over and over again . They wher talking about the same energy field the western science is denying it´s existence. I went to egypt and visited all the sacred places . That triggered a sort of cosmic Download at night that was all dl to my subconciouss i could literally see the data stream and it was several streams going into my crown chackra .It is still overwhelming when it happens and i belive to some extend a lot of us are going through the same experience but we don´t know what to make of it . In my heart i know i must connect with people that can help me to fully intergrate these experiences into my life. In the last two years i feel my body energy changing my dreams become concious . I listen to Coastocoastam like nonstop all the knowledge i can get my hands on and it charges my brain. When i tried a Orgonic Chamber for the first time in my life i felt my vision changing and i felt more connected to the other side . Sometimes i feel something or somebody is near and trying to communicate with me but my preconceptions of the illusive life that i had are causing trouble for conscoius to see them . Sometimes when i feel really in tune i see another world shimmering through like a past world that used to be . I look at the sky and feel like i want to go home i feel like crying cause i don´t know where home is .The things that i see in my astral travels i paint them (.myspace.com/yamagu1) i do not know what they mean . First i thought i am going crazy but i feel more confident that it all makes sense and the more i solve the better my life functions.I wish i had the money to experiment and build the things i need to build i am looking for support in this. I have the abilty to feel the enery coming from orgonic devices a can feel trees and the earth like you would feel electric current . I can feel fruits like lemons with my hands . My thumbs are constantly buzzing i am changing step by step .Then i watched the series heroes and realized this is no coincidink that all of this is happening . The hard part is that it does not pay you to explore that is why i am looing for Sirius Supporters. I see 11:11 almost evry second day . I see 2:22 , 15.15, 22:22 . I used to be bad in Meditating practice now its crazy after five minutes i am gone with no efford .When i use Hemisync brainfrequencies it zappes my right into innerspace i wish i could learne to activate the frequenzies wher one can perceive angels and such i know it is possible. One message keeps appearing over and over "We must restore the old power". William henry talks about blue stones and stargates we are all looking for stargates !!!
The Mayans are talking abou the human body being a Galactic portal i believe that we are the Stargates we are the portals we just have to learn how to us our will combined with our spirit and emotion right then we could go anywhere and be any thing fully concious .I heared of tales where Shamans could cross over into the spiritworld or transform and swimm with dolphins and come back to tell what they where saying . I belive that Planet Sirius A and B are very important planets or at least the energy that comes from there. We used to have 24 hour days now it is 16 hour days . They actually have to manipulate the atomic clock just to keep our Time Lying systhem running cause the universe speeds up . It is written in many ancient text that ther will be a time of no time like 00.00 hours standstill. If we where two dimensional beings and you would draw a circle around us we could never leave the circle. We are four dimensional beings walking around in a bubble of illusive time that we think we can´t leave so there fore we are stuck .When time resolves into notime it will break down reality as we know .If we do not accept that his can happen then we will loose our mind .But in the end trust your emotional body .LOve is what keeps us save . We will be save i think the rest is propaganda .And other like me out there you are loved and not alone . I order to be clear stay away from the wrong foods and from chemicals you don´t really need. Watch www.consciousmedianetwork.com and check wilddivine.com train your kids train yourselfes.

To all of you outhere supporters like minds starkids starseed elementals dwarfes Elfes,angels and more ....
tell me what you think . If any one responds i would be honored to hear from you .

God bless the planet and all beings on it.

Paradox-720